So tomorrow night is the one hour series finale of 30 Rock!!!!
Then as if that wasn’t enough for my emotions,Grey’s Anatomy is right after that.
Basically, I’ll be dead by 10pm tomorrow night.
Yesterday at work I was emptying out the Teen lost in found with one of the librarians. As we were going through the stuff and throwing things out, she asked if there was anything I wanted. There was nothing really worth while, so I didn’t take anything; till we got to the bottom of the basket. There I found an iTunes gift card. The redemption code was already scratched off and I figured that it had already been redeemed, but the librarian said to take it and give it a try anyway.
I left the card in the pocket of my work shirt yesterday, so I didn’t get to check it till today. When I entered the code into iTunes, like I said I didn’t think it would work, but it did!!!
Now just to figure out what to buy…I probably won’t get music..maybe some tv shows, or any app of my mom’s ipad…idk…
Yes I do and have all my life felt like I was annoying people. Whenever I talk or vent I feel like I’m annoying people. Even if they say they care it still worries me. I feel I’m pushing people away even if I’m not. Even with this post I feel like I’m annoying people.
I listen to everyone else and help people willingly because it’s what I enjoy doing and want to do. And I will never stop helping others.
And yes I get that people have their own wants and needs and sometimes need downtime and time to vent as well…and I give that to them again willingly.
But I feel like when it comes to me when I need something, when I reach out to my friends…it’s like no one is there; even if I’ve always been there for them. And if I check on my friends to see how they are no one checks on me.
And I get that people can’t always be there always I understand that (that’s not what I’m asking for)…but when they can be there they’re not. And it’s either because they really don’t care or they can’t handle it, or idk….
This is if and when I move it might just have to be someplace that stays warm (aka doesn’t really have a winter).
The lack of winter last year spoiled me; and I think that this past summer I spent so much time out and biking that I became addicted to the heat and the warmth….fuck I miss it…
Right now it’s 20°F and snowing outside. I have the heat on and I’m wearing a sweater and jeans.
I’d really like to be somewhere in the US where it’s like 70/80°F and I can be wearing shorts and a tank top and maybe even have the ac on!
So can someone please come and get me and take me where it’s warm? Or trade places with me? Please?
In addition to what I said earlier(view it here) I will also say that this is tried and true as well, “Actions speak louder then words.”
So take a moment and ask yourself this, What are your actions or inactions saying about you?
After 30 Rock tonight I realized I am Liz Lemon. All day I was telling myself to channel my inner Lemon (to keep from wanting to kill someone or turn them into a ball of fingers), well I didn’t realize how right I’d be. You know why!?
Because I step up to the plate when no one else does, I work hard for everyone else, scarifying myself and my life. But does anyone else step up and give me a hand…..NO
In words of Liz Lemon… What does it take for someone to step up to the plate and help me for a change?
All I’m saying is I’m stepping up to the plate, I have and will always step up to the plate…but the question is will you join?
Will you do what it takes to step up to the plate?
Okay so tonight I’m at my 5 hour pre licensing class, and there’s mostly high school kids there all well and good.
So this girl behind me is talking to her friends about school and their classes okay. So she was saying how WITH A TUTOR mind you she could not get passed a 12 as an average in trigonometry! I’m not saying people need to be math geniuses, but come on you have a TUTOR and you can’t get passed a 12 as a grade! I’m sorry sweetie but the problem isn’t the math anymore. So yes I’m not surprised you’ve been working at Subway for four years, and I’m scared for people when you start driving.
I’m glad I’m not a high schooler anymore.
My post from earlier ended being longer then I intended, but I guess I just need to get it out there. Whether anyone cares or reads it, it does not matter I just needed to put it out there.
I by no means meant to judge anyone nor do I do judge. And I want you all to know that I’m always here for you all no matter what!
If you want to read my post from earlier you can check it out here.